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Sunday, February 24, 2008
8:46 PM
moved.RELINK!
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
12:16 AM
liar.pants on fire.
*happy chinese new year*
(brb)
bad,bad feeling..
"long way to happy"
Monday, February 04, 2008
10:50 PM
state of depression.
Friday, February 01, 2008
12:20 AM
"Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted.."
Thursday, January 31, 2008
9:35 AM
bad.
worst.
worse.
its worst than worse.
losing faith in that fourletterwordcalled.
(those beautiful rays of sunlight-went away.)
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
12:56 AM
& luckily,
you light up my life
1)trng, wed
2)botanical garden-ing, fri
3)whole day out with my love, sat
4)reunion dinner, sun
what else, what else?
a hug ard dad's big tummy.
12:45 AM
):
i need a larger desk.
notes are piling up so high, i cant see my bed.
i need more brain cells,
enough to last me 24hrs a day.
i want exams to be before cny,
not after. i want to enjoy the holidays.
lets have a petition.
"dear confucius,..."
Saturday, January 26, 2008
10:04 PM
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like i've said a million zillion times i heart my cousins,esp the little ones,
always so bubbly & innocent.
that whenever they are around, i feel sunny.
they make me smile, truly.
happy birthday ahminah. stay retarded (: loves.
mahjong + 007.
they made my day a bad bao bao all worth it.
Ha.
lets meet up again please, this time round all 8 of us.
like after exams!
like after exams!
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at this point,
we're all thinking far ahead.
there's the many never ending questions as to who we will be in future.
yes the future.
planning the unpredictable future.
that as your mind is busy thinking of how you're to study for the upcoming FINAL exams (stressed enough),
its also filled with infos about all possible places you can & wish to go after you graduate.
& imagine..
that's 2 out of 129083058749756265 points in my brain's content page.
third in the list
one week left..
one wednesday left..
the 3 years are almost up..
oversaddening? overthinking? overemoing?
i dont know. maybe.
cant help it.
i'm sad, really sad..
(its trapped in a box locked and kept under the deep blue sea. so tell me, why not?)
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
12:02 AM
Main Entry: burn out
Part of Speech: verb
Definition: become drained
Synonyms: become exhausted, exhaust, fatigue, get tired, grow weary, run down, run out of steam, stress out, tire, wear down, wear out
(credits to www.dictionary.com)
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badmorning
badafternoon
badnight.
):
she exist no more.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
10:49 PM
"And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We'd see the day when nobody died"
if only everythings' as simple as that.
dont poke me.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
11:11 PM
you you you you you you you you you you you you you
you you you you you you you you you you you you you
you you you you you you you you you you you you you
you you you you you you you you you you you you you
stop ripping off my patience ):
i want them back.
12:53 AM
love.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
9:39 PM
I am legend.
girls night out.
training.
settler's chalet.
projects.
a week full of great fun and feelings.
all good & bad..
now's the 3rd week.
been living each day with so many to handle and cope and more to come,
that somehow at times the days ahead seems so meaningless.
am robotic
numb
tired.
.esaelp yoj emos em gnirb
i cant tink of anything else but rants & complains.
& my left eye's still twitching. horrible.
yack yack yack. stop it woman.
repeat after me, tml will be a better day.
girls night out.
training.
settler's chalet.
projects.
a week full of great fun and feelings.
all good & bad..
now's the 3rd week.
been living each day with so many to handle and cope and more to come,
that somehow at times the days ahead seems so meaningless.
am robotic
numb
tired.
.esaelp yoj emos em gnirb
i cant tink of anything else but rants & complains.
& my left eye's still twitching. horrible.
yack yack yack. stop it woman.
repeat after me, tml will be a better day.
Sunday, January 06, 2008
3:19 PM
trying my best to put away all that i've seen, all that i've heard, all that i've been thinking;
away from here as far as possible.
studies comes first now.
1:35 PM
saturday 5th january 2008,
met them up in town,had a little celebration for be, our very 1st turning 20 (:
& i treasure every short time spent together.
love them ever & ever <3
went back to al-ameen for dinner! (:
were all supporting tiff's cousin (:
had a great night.
a squeezy one (:
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thursday 3rd january 2008,
& so we headed to paragon - hollywood secrets (:
had our eyebrows trimmed.
helped polar out with his social psychological proj,
then was starbucks for our pmkt proj.
went back to al-ameen for dinner! (:coach's treat.
bbq stingray,mutton soup,beehoon,ice kachang with ice cream,satay,rojak etc,
ain & peb's funny moment,
their enchanted moments haha.
reallyyyy whoooopilyyyy funnnnn (:
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nickelback - photograph;
I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to stay
So hard to leave it
If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change..
Thursday, January 03, 2008
11:33 PM
my head it hurts.
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
9:39 PM
u had my attention. i'm unaware of, nt to even mention u.
this is a mistaken situation - my mistake.
this is a mistaken situation - my mistake.
how long has it been since i last smiled to you?
how long has it been since i last had the least bit of encouragement from you?
how long has it been since you last discussed something with me?
not telling but listening,not insisting but accepting?
and how much do you exactly know about me
to tell me what i should be doing thats best for you myself?
i'm not smarter than she is.
this i know,
right from the start.
so save the effort; you dont have to say it straight to my face.
time and again i hoped,
hoping you'll say "yes you have my support",
time and again you dashed those hopes.
time and again you 3 make me feel so inferior, so invisible..
so in case you didnt notice,
thanks for those disappointments.
i dont dare anymore.
you may carry on.
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rants aside,
today's the start of another semester,
one that's shorter than my little finger.
met up with them at wen's place
where we laughed our hearts/stomachs/intestines all out while playing with her new macbook.
we finished up some projs too. (some)
and so, we're meeting again tomorrow.
and the day after tomorrow.
and almost every other days.
(: yayness.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
2:11 PM
"Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see"
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its a bad start.
but hope its a great one for everyone else (: happy 08 to you.
Saturday, December 29, 2007
1:33 AM
a day filled with hockey,& hockey.
woke up @ 5.30am, met the ruz-zie n headed for redhill.
its the crescent club carnival, one team; 10 of us.
ja,maz,aneesa,charlene,azian,elle,zie,ruz,sam,me.
great day with 2/3 great games and 1 how-we-wish-we-can-sack-him umpire.
was as proud of them as usual (:
it ended ard 1..bathed & went MS with zie.
shopped a little before BREEKS, then its back to skool..
woke up @ 5.30am, met the ruz-zie n headed for redhill.
its the crescent club carnival, one team; 10 of us.
ja,maz,aneesa,charlene,azian,elle,zie,ruz,sam,me.
great day with 2/3 great games and 1 how-we-wish-we-can-sack-him umpire.
was as proud of them as usual (:
it ended ard 1..bathed & went MS with zie.
shopped a little before BREEKS, then its back to skool..
(thanks to izzat;the camera man)
it was the AGM, a wonderful night. & this group of us came.izzat & desmond too!
there's the passing down of committee, giving out of medals,birthday surprise,NP HOCKEY'S VERY OWN BAND PERFORMANCE, speeches, short video, hugs &
was totally enjoyable & fun (:
really appreciate all that they've done for this very day.
after that was the usual walk to Al AMEEN! (:
it feels a little different. sad difference..when u noe it's gonna be the last.
(if only dear kat was there..)here's where the emotions really set in.
where saying goodbye's the most difficult..
especially to those who were there since the very 1st day,
those whom u worked with, so much.all together just for the club the team,
those whom u had so much fun & laughters with, in & out of the pitch,
those who never fails to make ur day everytime u're with them,
those u've grown so attached with.
as i typed..each & every moment we spent together,all faces of these ppl came flashing through my mind..
those i'll miss. so so so so much.
its the most difficult when u noe things will nv be the same.
its a period of time where the my heart aches most as i think.
(as i think of this being my last semester..of the MANY THINGS i love that has turned nth more but memories..)
have i ever mentioned..
i dislike year ends & count downs.
REALLY DISLIKE.
i'm a really gullible girl.
& i think its this gullibility that often puts me in such situations,
where i'm the one thats harder to let go of anything,
where i think so much of the unnecessaries
no not that, but something else.
u read me?
-am feeling all bitter & sour ):
& its not stopping.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
8:17 PM
HELLO & GOODBYE CHRISTMAS.
25-26 /12/2007
off to batam and back (:
2days1night; quality time spent with my family.
no laptops,no hp.tv with no shows i like.
all replaced by
the wind,the beach,coconut trees,greens,rocks, and deep sea.
(:
thats pa & ma (always 'punching' one another)
me & mei
one big destroyed SALE sign,& many (uncountable) demolished/half-built buildings.
out of 10 shops, only 0-1's opened.
& the families..they share A motorbike. (families of 3-5 members)
after all the shoppings, we took a 
there's the room!
big foot i found somewhere somehow.hoho!
ITS HIGH TIDE.
with so much love :D
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other than the shock i got frm almost losing my hp,
i had endless fun with them 3!- as always.
(:
23 /12/2007
xmas celebration with the relatives (:
he do love me! 
cousins & aunt
bb ivan forgot all bout the star on his head
we wanted a family photo. 
((((: fun-loving cousins
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with all the home-cooked food, gift exchange & chats.
i'm so looking forward to nxt yr's celebration (:
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xmas celebration with the classmates (:
sad that it's not held at michele's place.
but i guess its still the same anyways (:
kr's the star. one's a star, always a star hoho!
got a mug frm derick+gf! (:
*& thanks mummy, for all the preparations*
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i just realised,i think alot.
alot about the friends,the family, my life,
the past, the future & the present..
good or bad,
happy or sad.
erm,i guess its just everything anything under the sky.
random.
Saturday, December 22, 2007
10:50 PM
a little seaside getaway
MUSIC: holiday/boys like girls;
i'll run away.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
11:34 PM
loving the christmas season
loving those beautiful lights
<3
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
10:27 AM
chatting with zie now.
meeting her soooooooooooooooooon!
like after so long ((:
cant wait.
chatting with ruz too.
her being so excited forever
just makes me excited about everything under the sky! :D
now the happiest thing is,
she'll be back, 3 days' time (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
& so u see,
i'm a PERFECTLYHAPPYGIRL *let me erase the projects frm my mind temporarily first*
Monday, December 17, 2007
8:43 PM
grow fringe grow.
Saturday, December 15, 2007
5:11 PM
AM JUST WONDERING. WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN UP TO? (:.jpg)
it has been busy weeks accompanied with the many works projects tests and some others that could have drowned me. the heart attack was my antique laptop almost crashed.
zombie life (:
OF COURSE! her big day's nv forgotten (:
hope she's really happy.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIFF.
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here's one fine night to study in skool.
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& there's the very important FOOD to keep us alive.
BEFORE/DURING/AFTER, we eat.
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thursday: met him & the relatives for only minutes. see how much he've grown. so much more adorable & likeable (: & yes. it makes you realise how much you've missed out. on every others too.
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14/12/2007:
the day we'll do anything for it to come.
cause only then,
there'll be no more need for us to mug till we drop, sleep to wake up several hours later & continue with what we've left out reading. (at least for afew months before..)
with no more energy to carry on; we couldnt stop.
no more will to carry on; i couldnt give up.
its over,for now.
(GLADDY GLAD GLAD)
so after 14/12/2007, its the holidays not holidays.
there's 5 deadlines right after 2007.
not one we've touched though we always claimed we "did" (:
NEHBERMIND.
i'm sure there's still room for FUN & ENTERTAINMENT,even if its only 1 or 2 out of the 14
(((:
[that includes:
LOVERS
its a really lovely show (:
he's just so charming.
sadly excitedly, today's the last episode.
JUMONG-PRINCE OF THE LEGEND
not to worry, i've got this to look forward to everyday 6.40 pm.the family enjoys watching it too (:
especially the dad.
FULLHOUSE
FULLHOUSE
i'll still want to watch this. ONE DAY! (:]
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NOW, its christmas time. my favourite season of the year.
we give with our hearts.
plus,the weather's so cool i love. just let it rain (: