sin

2008-02-24T20:46:00.002+08:00

moved.RELINK!

2008-02-06T00:16:00.000+08:00

liar.pants on fire.

*happy chinese new year*

(brb)

bad,bad feeling..

"long way to happy"

2008-02-04T22:50:00.000+08:00

sinking deep.
state of depression.

2008-02-01T00:20:00.000+08:00

"Do you know where your heart is?

Do you think you can find it?

Or did you trade it for something

Somewhere better just to have it?

Do you know where your love is?

Do you think that you lost it?

You felt it so strong, but

Nothing's turned out how you wanted.."

2008-01-31T09:35:00.000+08:00

bad.
worst.
worse.
its worst than worse.
losing faith in that fourletterwordcalled.

(those beautiful rays of sunlight-went away.)

2008-01-29T00:56:00.000+08:00

& luckily,
you light up my life
1)trng, wed
2)botanical garden-ing, fri
3)whole day out with my love, sat
4)reunion dinner, sun
what else, what else?

a hug ard dad's big tummy.

2008-01-29T00:45:00.001+08:00

i need a larger desk.

notes are piling up so high, i cant see my bed.

i need more brain cells,

enough to last me 24hrs a day.

i want exams to be before cny,

not after. i want to enjoy the holidays.

lets have a petition.

"dear confucius,..."

2008-01-26T22:04:00.000+08:00

like i've said a million zillion times i heart my cousins,

esp the little ones,

always so bubbly & innocent.

that whenever they are around, i feel sunny.

they make me smile, truly.

happy birthday ahminah. stay retarded (: loves.

a day at NTU with them. xiao bernard n ash werent there ):

mahjong + 007.

they made my day a bad bao bao all worth it.

Ha.

lets meet up again please, this time round all 8 of us.
like after exams!

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at this point,

we're all thinking far ahead.

there's the many never ending questions as to who we will be in future.

yes the future.

planning the unpredictable future.

that as your mind is busy thinking of how you're to study for the upcoming FINAL exams (stressed enough),

its also filled with infos about all possible places you can & wish to go after you graduate.

& imagine..

that's 2 out of 129083058749756265 points in my brain's content page.

third in the list

one week left..

one wednesday left..

the 3 years are almost up..

oversaddening? overthinking? overemoing?

i dont know. maybe.

cant help it.

i'm sad, really sad..

(its trapped in a box locked and kept under the deep blue sea. so tell me, why not?)

2008-01-23T00:02:00.000+08:00

Main Entry: burn out
Part of Speech: verb
Definition: become drained
Synonyms: become exhausted, exhaust, fatigue, get tired, grow weary, run down, run out of steam, stress out, tire, wear down, wear out

(credits to www.dictionary.com)

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badmorning

badafternoon

badnight.

she exist no more.

2008-01-20T22:49:00.000+08:00

"And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We'd see the day when nobody died"

if only everythings' as simple as that.
dont poke me.

2008-01-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

you you you you you you you you you you you you you

stop ripping off my patience ):

i want them back.

2008-01-17T00:53:00.000+08:00

love.

2008-01-15T21:39:00.000+08:00

I am legend.
girls night out.
training.
settler's chalet.
projects.
a week full of great fun and feelings.
all good & bad..

now's the 3rd week.

been living each day with so many to handle and cope and more to come,
that somehow at times the days ahead seems so meaningless.

am robotic
numb
tired.
.esaelp yoj emos em gnirb

i cant tink of anything else but rants & complains.
& my left eye's still twitching. horrible.

yack yack yack. stop it woman.

repeat after me, tml will be a better day.

2008-01-06T15:19:00.000+08:00

trying my best to put away all that i've seen, all that i've heard, all that i've been thinking;
away from here as far as possible.
studies comes first now.

2008-01-06T13:35:00.000+08:00

saturday 5th january 2008,

met them up in town,

had a little celebration for be, our very 1st turning 20 (:

& i treasure every short time spent together.

love them ever & ever <3

then was off to ARENA for the inter-jc pageant.

were all supporting tiff's cousin (:

had a great night.

a squeezy one (:

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thursday 3rd january 2008,

it was a short day for school, just 2 tutorial hours.

& so we headed to paragon - hollywood secrets (:

had our eyebrows trimmed.

helped polar out with his social psychological proj,

then was starbucks for our pmkt proj.

went back to al-ameen for dinner! (:

coach's treat.

bbq stingray,mutton soup,beehoon,ice kachang with ice cream,satay,rojak etc,

ain & peb's funny moment,

their enchanted moments haha.

reallyyyy whoooopilyyyy funnnnn (:

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nickelback - photograph;

I miss that town

I miss the faces

You can't erase

You can't replace it

I miss it now

I can't believe it

So hard to stay

So hard to leave it

If I could I relive those days

I know the one thing that would never change..

2008-01-03T23:33:00.000+08:00

my head it hurts.

2008-01-02T21:39:00.000+08:00

u had my attention. i'm unaware of, nt to even mention u.
this is a mistaken situation - my mistake.

how long has it been since i last smiled to you?

how long has it been since i last had the least bit of encouragement from you?

how long has it been since you last discussed something with me?

not telling but listening,not insisting but accepting?

and how much do you exactly know about me

to tell me what i should be doing thats best for ~~you~~ myself?

i'm not smarter than she is.

this i know,

right from the start.

so save the effort; you dont have to say it straight to my face.

time and again i hoped,

hoping you'll say "yes you have my support",

time and again you dashed those hopes.

time and again you 3 make me feel so inferior, so invisible..

so in case you didnt notice,

thanks for those disappointments.

i dont dare anymore.

you may carry on.

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rants aside,

today's the start of another semester,

one that's shorter than my little finger.

met up with them at wen's place

where we laughed our hearts/stomachs/intestines all out while playing with her new macbook.

we finished up some projs too. (some)

and so, we're meeting again tomorrow.

and the day after tomorrow.

and almost every other days.

(: yayness.

2008-01-01T14:11:00.000+08:00

"Stop and stare

I think I'm moving but I go nowhere

I know that everyone gets scared

But I've become what I can't be

Stop and stare

You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there

And you'd give anything to get what's fair

But fair ain't what you really need

Oh, can u see what I see"

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its a bad start.

but hope its a great one for everyone else (: happy 08 to you.

2007-12-29T01:33:00.000+08:00

a day filled with hockey,& hockey.

woke up @ 5.30am, met the ruz-zie n headed for redhill.
its the crescent club carnival, one team; 10 of us.
ja,maz,aneesa,charlene,azian,elle,zie,ruz,sam,me.
great day with 2/3 great games and 1 how-we-wish-we-can-sack-him umpire.
was as proud of them as usual (:
it ended ard 1..bathed & went MS with zie.
shopped a little before BREEKS, then its back to skool..

(thanks to izzat;the camera man)

it was the AGM, a wonderful night. & this group of us came.
izzat & desmond too!
there's the passing down of committee, giving out of medals,birthday surprise,NP HOCKEY'S VERY OWN BAND PERFORMANCE, speeches, short video, hugs & ~~kisses~~..
was totally enjoyable & fun (:
really appreciate all that they've done for this very day.
after that was the usual walk to Al AMEEN! (:
it feels a little different. sad difference..when u noe it's gonna be the last.

(if only dear kat was there..)

here's where the emotions really set in.

where saying goodbye's the most difficult..

especially to those who were there since the very 1st day,

those whom u worked with, so much.all together just for the club the team,

those whom u had so much fun & laughters with, in & out of the pitch,

those who never fails to make ur day everytime u're with them,

those u've grown so attached with.

as i typed..each & every moment we spent together,all faces of these ppl came flashing through my mind..

those i'll miss. so so so so much.

its the most difficult when u noe things will nv be the same.

its a period of time where ~~the~~ my heart aches most as i think.

(as i think of this being my last semester..of the MANY THINGS i love that has turned nth more but memories..)

have i ever mentioned..

i dislike year ends & count downs.

REALLY DISLIKE.

~~10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1.2008~~

i'm a really gullible girl.

& i think its this gullibility that often puts me in such situations,

where i'm the one thats harder to let go of anything,

where i think so much of the unnecessaries

no not that, but something else.

u read me?

-am feeling all bitter & sour ):

& its not stopping.

2007-12-26T20:17:00.000+08:00

HELLO & GOODBYE CHRISTMAS.

25-26 /12/2007

off to batam and back (:

2days1night; quality time spent with my family.

no laptops,no hp.tv with no shows i like.

all replaced by

the wind,the beach,coconut trees,greens,rocks, and deep sea.

thats pa & ma (always 'punching' one another)
me & mei
one big destroyed SALE sign,& many (uncountable) demolished/half-built buildings.
out of 10 shops, only 0-1's opened.
& the families..they share A motorbike. (families of 3-5 members)
after all the shoppings, we took a ~~long~~ LONG bumpy ride to TURI BEACH RESORT.

there's the room!

big foot i found somewhere somehow.hoho!

ITS HIGH TIDE.with so much love :D

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other than the shock i got frm almost losing my hp,

i had endless fun with them 3!- as always.

23 /12/2007

xmas celebration with the relatives (:

he do love me! cousins & aunt

bb ivan forgot all bout the star on his head we wanted a family photo. ((((: fun-loving cousins

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with all the home-cooked food, gift exchange & chats.

i'm so looking forward to nxt yr's celebration (:

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xmas celebration with the classmates (:

sad that it's not held at michele's place.

but i guess its still the same anyways (:

kr's the star. one's a star, always a star hoho!

got a mug frm derick+gf! (:

*& thanks mummy, for all the preparations*

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i just realised,i think alot.

alot about the friends,the family, my life,

the past, the future & the present..

good or bad,

happy or sad.

erm,i guess its just everything anything under the sky.

random.

2007-12-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

a little seaside getaway

MUSIC: holiday/boys like girls;

i'll run away.

2007-12-20T23:34:00.000+08:00

loving the christmas season

loving those beautiful lights

2007-12-18T10:27:00.000+08:00

chatting with zie now.

meeting her soooooooooooooooooon!

like after so long ((:

cant wait.

chatting with ruz too.

her being so excited forever

just makes me excited about everything under the sky! :D

now the happiest thing is,

she'll be back, 3 days' time (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

& so u see,

i'm a PERFECTLYHAPPYGIRL *let me erase the projects frm my mind temporarily first*

2007-12-17T20:43:00.000+08:00

grow fringe grow.

2007-12-15T17:11:00.000+08:00

AM JUST WONDERING. WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN UP TO? (:

it has been busy weeks accompanied with the many works projects tests and some others that could have drowned me. the heart attack was my antique laptop almost crashed.

zombie life (:

OF COURSE! her big day's nv forgotten (:

hope she's really happy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIFF.

here's one fine night to study in skool.

& there's the very important FOOD to keep us alive.

BEFORE/DURING/AFTER, we eat.

thursday: met him & the relatives for only minutes. see how much he've grown. so much more adorable & likeable (: & yes. it makes you realise how much you've missed out. on every others too.

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14/12/2007:

the day we'll do anything for it to come.

cause only then,

there'll be no more need for us to mug till we drop, sleep to wake up several hours later & continue with what we've left out reading. (at least for afew months before..)

with no more energy to carry on; we couldnt stop.

no more will to carry on; i couldnt give up.

its over,for now.

(GLADDY GLAD GLAD)

so after 14/12/2007, its the holidays not holidays.

there's 5 deadlines right after 2007.

not one we've touched though we always claimed we "did" (:

NEHBERMIND.

i'm sure there's still room for FUN & ENTERTAINMENT,even if its only 1 or 2 out of the 14

(((:

[that includes:

LOVERS

its a really lovely show (:

he's just so charming.

sadly excitedly, today's the last episode.

JUMONG-PRINCE OF THE LEGEND

not to worry, i've got this to look forward to everyday 6.40 pm.

the family enjoys watching it too (:

especially the dad.

FULLHOUSE

i'll still want to watch this. ONE DAY! (:]

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NOW, its christmas time. my favourite season of the year.

we give with our hearts.

plus,the weather's so cool i love. just let it rain (:

2007-11-27T21:36:00.000+08:00

& its hunting me still.
the every single little thing.
shoo.

& maybe i should be the one asking,
what am i to do?
as your friend, a closer one.
what am i to do?
besides making your life more & more complicated.

*throw me hugs.

2007-11-26T23:00:00.001+08:00

stop. dont go too far ahead..

2007-11-25T11:40:00.000+08:00

22.11.2007

ONE SWEET DAY.

they wanted to give me a lil surprise but i turned too soon :x

their smiles & love & cheezyness

simply brightened up my day.

made me realise how much i've been missing them; & the rest.

then came them-my awesome classmates.

crappy, always full of nonsense..

never changed a single bit.

really thank them, for being there

(since the very first day of year 1.)

& them..

who filled my life with endless joy & laughter,

& love.

who sticked side by side through ups & downs.

who planned everything, bringing them together all for me.

they mean so much.

to think that, we were strangers before.

((:

thank you loves.

& i treasure them the most.

brought me to this world where i'm able to go through this thing called life.

where will/can i be,without them.

most thankfully,

they gave me her 15yrs ago.

& no i can never imagine life without her,

my dearest sister-

AHMINAHHH ((:

we watched hero, ate my favourite, massive attacked

& lastly, lost a little of our way home haha

nevertheless, i enjoyed.. totally.

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& this is for you mr. thiru.

i've wondered how come you never wished,

never mentioned the whole day.

smelt something fishy & so i waited (impatiently).

till the very last min.

then taadaa,

there came my present - s u r p r i s i n g l y.

nandri,

for everything anything nothing something watever. HOHO

loves.

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PLUS!

there's

those who msged/called at 12,

those who sent the little short msgs/comments through the day,

everyone anyone who wished.

((((:

lovesloves!

---------------------------

not forgetting the haagen daz. that was the sweetest (:

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my angels.

2007-11-20T00:34:00.001+08:00

sometimes the harder you try..
sometimes the more you explain..
sometimes the lesser you do..
sometimes when you think..
sometimes when you assume..
sometimes..sometimes..

i demand a longer week.make it longer than 7 days.
CAN!?

*ssshout out loud*

whats there exactly to look forward to?

2007-11-16T21:43:00.000+08:00

i'll never forget that very moment,

how we screamed our lungs out when the score made a difference.

it was a beautiful ending.

to our game, to mine.

so proud to be part of the family,

as coach put it - the 2nd best.

;with no regrets.

go ngee ann go ((:

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life hasnt been very nice.

it went all out to show me the ugly sides of the world, the people.

blew me off so hard that i lost my grip.

its disgusting how you can change and make things happen,

how you can give and take as and when you like.

i really dislike you,whoever you are.

no one is as powerful as you.

crazy, out of mind, thats what you can turn someone into.

& all i can do now is to rant here like a madman cos i cant take it anymore.

you won. i surrender.

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truth is,

i'm the fool.

let that be the answer to all uncertainties.

i dont mind.

just as long as we stop this whole hoo-ha.

it kills.

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Amidst of all those unwanted darkness,

i see the faces of those that light up my life even if its just simple smiles from afar.

met tomo in the library ystd.

as we hello-ed, he said "see";

showing me the little devil hanging on his finger.

met pebby chan before that too.

she showed me the band on her wrist,

saying how bad she felt not wearing it the day before.

its little things like these that touches my heart most.

((:

plus there's the best,who stood by me without fail.

its these people.they are the only reason why i say thank you.

2007-11-13T22:55:00.000+08:00

tml's the last.

cant wait, cant wait not.

-too attached.

2007-11-11T10:44:00.000+08:00

it had to happen this way.
i chose for it to be this way.
so no one else to blame, seriously.
am too tired to see to hear to think to speak.
emotionally i mean.
so just let me be.
be as bz as i can
to forget that tiredness so then i can move on.
i'll be fine.
its just about time to close that door.
& that too.
sorry to make you worry.

make me laugh make me smile.
(:
-------

2007-11-08T11:58:00.000+08:00

mamee craze ((:
WELOVERED.

2007-11-06T23:27:00.000+08:00

"just wanna say jiayou with all that life throws at you"

((:

made me stronger.

love u love!

2007-11-06T00:43:00.000+08:00

明天过后; 吴克群

"我相信抱着

你的手就温暖了

睡着或醒着

我的手为你加温

就算明天崩塌又如何

我们手握着外

面天再冷

全都由我负责"

lovely. but emoish. tsk!

2007-11-06T00:23:00.000+08:00

[the smuggest team award goes to them.]

well anyways,
kept telling myself time & again NOT TO.
controlled time & again NOT TO.
but today just went out of control. so sorry.
still, GOOD GAME played.
we tried our best.
(:

just what was i thinking? hmm.

2007-11-04T00:48:00.000+08:00

TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO TROPPO.
(such a fool.) dont test me.

2007-10-31T22:33:00.000+08:00

stay strong ((: U CAN. go kat! loves!

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fact.issue.conclusion.

procedures,tests,materiality.

flows,invests,payables.

they drive me nuts already.

((((BIG HEADACHE))))

2007-10-30T21:48:00.000+08:00

bad tutorial day. robbed away my brain cells which left me brain dead for the rest of the day. boo. sorry.. blame it on the human nature.
still,
so thankful i had momin & ruzy with me while we made the trip down to the other side of s'pore (((: hoho!

tomorrow will be a better day for you & for me.
so hang in there
& smile away ((:

(the stomach never seems to get full ): WHY AR?

this is so baddddd.)

2007-10-30T00:37:00.000+08:00

OK Go - "here it goes again"

"Just when you think you're in control,
just when you think you've got a hold,
just when you get on a roll,
here it goes again.."

(rocksocks!)

----

hey come on.

SMILESSSSS

2007-10-27T15:11:00.000+08:00

ain gt us all thinking.he's the man. lol! tomo chan (:
thanks kat for the pics loves!

2007-10-26T20:36:00.000+08:00

deciso, we can get there.

RENDITION's out! (((:

2007-10-23T18:03:00.000+08:00

100 thumbs up!!! (((: enjoyed totally! minus away those short stoning time :x

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week two day two,

i reached home this early for the first time ever since skool started.

finally seeing mei for the first time ever since she went for camp last fri.

& i realised i lost track of those HK dramas i've been chasing for quite some time. GAH.

so tired so tired

i tink i can fall aslp anywhere anytime anyhow hurhur

the modules are so far so good..

claw.. i tink i like,

tax.. i tink i'm starting to like,

audit.. still the same-boring,

dpm.. the proj's FUN

wisp.. getting interesting,

afa.. erm..blank.

mkt..not bad!

haha -.-

& i guess the 3 crazy womens' the main reason why i'm liking these lectures & classes!

plus there's the other few women who makes me look forward to the end of lesson each day!

(((:

random:

tried this moos ice cream the other day. I LIKE ((:

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so i guess its just me then.

& thanks, for reminding how much u're still hating me.

if tt's a way of making me feel worst, u succeeded.

i guess i've just landed myself into a big mess in my life i cant handle.

this is so acting smart & capable.

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thursday's the first big day.

still not ready yet i feel.

but like what coach said, we're one family.

we'll all do this together.

(how i hope ma & pa can have a lil more patience.

once its over, things will be back to normal, somehow..)

2007-10-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

week one.

met up several times @ the board game room with them.
off to suntec with them. amore.
board game room again with them. we miss kr.
it has been nth but a week filled with this.

singapore vs malaysia 2-1.

awesome game.

so proud of those 2 ((:

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tired..tired..

cant rem a day i slpt b4 1.

panda-ing;

do not disturb.

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tell me how life can get better

when numbness's all i feel.

when everything's held on so tightly, i cant breathe.

when every step i take now i take so carefully,

afraid of making anymore mistakes.

nothing to hold on to.

no, its not the ususal swings

where i can easily tell myself " i can make it through".

serious now.

what you know bout me?

2007-10-14T01:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIZAM'S GIRL! haha (:
& DEAREST AIN!!! (:

love you 2 like millions trillions!

2007-10-14T00:41:00.000+08:00

(: the forever love.
way too beautiful. like an angel.

happy 1st month lil one ((:
there, the BUFFET! hurhur.

just right outside the living room, along the corridor.

aunt had the windows opened.

& dear mum started acting like some canteen aunty from outside.

damn funny!!!

-------

selamat hari raya (:

everything's in a terrible mess.

& i'm left with only ONE day.

afew miserable hours actually.

how nice.

2007-10-12T22:57:00.000+08:00

happy birthday FRED & RAVI ((: celebrated their bdae ystd.
zie's advanced bdae too.
went bowling aft dinner.
back to that place so full of our old school memories.
those noisy crazy times.
it would've been perfect if u're here too.
miles apart u may be,
the closeness u r to our hearts remains unchanged.
imissyoutess.heartfelt.
<3

(SUNNY DAY WITH THE RAIN TOGETHER)

2007-10-11T02:05:00.001+08:00

oh so colourful drinks made the other day (: the dee & dinos.
i think they look so damn cool - everytime a short corner's taken ((:my loves (((:
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complains.
i've not enjoyed my holidays enough.
sadly its left with only that few days.
NOT ENOUGH LAR.
roar.

In the end,
these remaining few months will just fly like any others.
i'm not ready yet.

i miss my friends, already.

------

crazily ok not.

torchlight please.

2007-10-09T00:38:00.000+08:00

trng @ OPA.
5.30-9! when its supposed to be erm.. 7.30?
fun still!
there's the sandwhich & bundung made by coach.
such a caring 'father' haha (:
hilarious time wif ruz pebs & char.
crazy people.

dinner @ home.
ma made some cheesecake. again. haa
sedap cannnn! (:

"determination-against all odds"

2007-10-08T14:23:00.000+08:00

signs you're going mad ;8days

-> you check your facebook account every five minutes to see if people are poking at you.

laughlaughlaughlol.

GILA.

2007-10-08T01:06:00.000+08:00

fish & co.-ed with the family for the 1st time.

all so fascinated by the fish bone on the table (:

especially ma. she was a lil high today.

then was the game.

it was played GREAT.

awesome ((:

"Make Me over"-; lifehouse

Wrap my arms around your neck

Feel your breath against my pains

I breath out

The past is gone

Empty smile

Make it hard

Who I was, falls apart

When you're here

Inside of me

Feel till your no death perception becoming the new different door

I'm losing myself just to find a place in your mind

And your mind

Changing myself, just to stand alone in your eyes

In your eyes

Pull me in, take me out, make me over

Ride the wave, ride your fears

In this ocean of tears, leave them here

Swimming off

Take me deep, till I find

Every corner of your mind
We've been here

Swimming off

Take, just a taste of the time

We are wasting alone

Waiting here

I'm losing myself just to find a place in your mind

In your mind

Changing myself, just to stand alone in your eyes

In your eyes

Pull me in, take me out, make me over

And Shout me out loud, shout me out loud

I'm losing myself just to find a place in your mind

In your mind

Changing myself, just to stand alone in your eyes

In your eyes

I'm losing myself just to find a place in your mind

In your mind

Pull me in, take me out, make me over

lovely song.I LOVE.

trng tml again (:

but ma & pa's quite unhappy i'm spending so much time on this something i like so much they wont understand.

plus, the late nights home

i smell trouble coming real soon

HOHO ):

just kidding heh.

(fight sin, FIGHT.)

2007-10-05T14:57:00.000+08:00

say, will anyone notice?

intention. when its not even there,dont ask.

sincerity. we all see nothing.

evil thoughts. dont deny.

when u meant well. it can mean otherwise to others.

wats wrong with me?

just wat m i doing?

wat issit tt ppl want?

2007-10-05T00:48:00.000+08:00

all so pretentious.

"从今以后如果你能快乐就别管我想你.."

hey gd morning mr.insomnia.

2007-10-04T01:06:00.000+08:00

one of those trngs i feel most heavenly.
my sunshines are the reason why.

so tell me, how do i turn this thing around?

~~emo )):~~

GAH.

goodnight world.

2007-10-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

1. have been reading loads of horoscope articles online lately.
the more i read, the more i find them so true, the more i'm believing.

2. a lil troubled happiness... every smile every laughter feels so heavy; as heavy as stone.i cant figure out.

3. the nanny diaries is negative one star.watch if you wanna fall aslp.

4. happy birthday to you (:

2007-09-30T23:38:00.000+08:00

hs's always amazing me with all his msn drawings :D

funny guy.

suggestion box; more weeks of holidays.

its only a suggestion.DAHHH.

its been long since i last

spent an almost entire day in the cosy aircon-ed room.

*& then there's this recent chicken rice crave.

2007-09-28T12:36:00.000+08:00

short quality time spent.

left b4 i could even meet the rest.

so like tiff said, i cant wait for the nxt time.

those catching up.

[funny them :D]

the rain had to spoil it all.

the pitch, the mood & bags.

nevertheless,we won.

i saw

the team took it as serious though it was only a friendly.

put wat were taught for the past weeks onto the pitch.

so dear tweety, wats the biggest room in the world? (:

i'm sure we'll do even better.

smiles were on all faces.

gladdy (:

[dear specially loved girls,

"No matter what happens

Through the good, through the bad

Really happy or sad,

We've got each other.."]

-------------

if only they can be controlled that easily.

"happy sad anger joy love hate .."

2007-09-25T16:48:00.000+08:00

he loves gatsby & song.
my fav. lil guy (:

2007-09-25T11:30:00.000+08:00

now's left with dear kat.

it will be even more perfect.

the endless funppyness (:

"we're all moving.sometimes we walk alone, sometimes we walk together.."

2007-09-23T21:00:00.000+08:00

there, that night.

i got to know them a little better.

& it seems they are just another crazy bunch ((:

-------------

aish.

korean dramas do make one emo.

watched with dad & mei.

SO EMO NOW CANNNN

2007-09-23T00:01:00.000+08:00

powerful hits sweeps pushes stops all.

*admire*

cant imagine there's even better players out there.

src won, both the men's & women's.

the games were awesome larrr

then there's the international donno wat wat wat coming up in oct.

hoho! spectator spectator shall be! (:

& we met ben.

surprisingly,he still remembers :D

-----------

once again, she's back to square ONE.

2007-09-20T23:53:00.000+08:00

SO SLEEPY.

trng in the morn. work's aft.

SO SLEEPY.
SO SLEEPY.
SO SLEEPY.
SO SLEEPY.
SO SLEEPY.
SO SLEEPY.
SO SLEEPY.
SO SLEEPY.
SO SLEEPY.

2007-09-20T01:54:00.000+08:00

wanted to upload this cute photo of my lil bf.
but it kept saying the page cannot be displayed.so oh wells.
-.-

now..there's the good & the bad times.
today's the not so good one.
still, smile & let it be (:

& as i was telling pebs, it can get a lil tiring at times. now..i'm quite.

2007-09-18T10:31:00.000+08:00

staff night ystd.
another family i see (:
all fun & loving & caring.
loads of smiles & laughters.

today:
timetable registration.
no fp, got into marketing instead.
rahh rahh haha
but i've gt the other 3 with me.
guess it doesnt matter as long as we're all together ((:

the timetable still sucks -.-

& again they didnt ask but jump to their very own conclusions again.
it frustrates. RAHHHH

"..And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging you to be my escape..."

2007-09-16T21:50:00.000+08:00

14/9/2007

jk,lt,se,est
gl trying to promote the game
all of us

---

met up with the long-time-no-see seniors @ mind cafe. like the other time at settlers, i had fun (: had loads of laughters & crazy times with the games & with them. there'll be more of such times i hope ((:

15/9/2007

---

morn ard 8am. ma woke me up to hav breakfast with xiao yi & jie & lil ones.went all the way to jalan kayu for roti prata & otak. quite oily :x al-almeen more preferred. walked ard compass pt before uncle drove us to this reservoir @ upp seletar. new nice place found! (: then was off to work.

16/9/2007

ahminahhhh

ma & the cousins

there's pa!fetching them

the lil one ((:

she's so pretty cann!

@ kkh

you call them hen xiao li

dinner! there's xiao yi zhang, xiao yi, er yi, er yi zhang, ah mei jie hurhur.

---

xiao jiu mu gave birth to a lil girl ystd. another new member in the family ((: & so all of us went to KKH. all so excited to see the newborn. its funny how we come up with weird names for her. its been long since i last saw all of us together. we went off to wham poa for dinner. 2nd time there! the food's still as delicious ((: left with a ba lu ku on my head. knocked against some shelter thingy. tsk. so pain cannn. ma still said "why you so short still can get knocked" -.- love her larr haha

2007-09-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

OH TRAININGS.
physical was ggrrrrreat.
wayyy better & fun-ner than expected.
ran for 20mins b4 we all started hopping ard like lil kangaroos & rabbits.
the coach's nice.
plus quite a no. turned up, the nomals & abnormals..
played at kismis till 9plus.

lala,my toes r distorting ugily.
plus there's blisters on both legs.
bahhhhhhhhhh.
my fault ):

trng tml again!
i'm falling so in love with the game.

& dear ahminah,
if anything can come to you, it can go away too.
some might just stay forever. we nv noe.
so dont think of what will happen nxt nor what had happened b4.
just treasure what u have now to the fullest. tt's the most impt.
life's full of highs & lows.
you have to stay strong. & always believe in urself (:

2007-09-11T22:27:00.000+08:00

no reservations

the last legion

chak de india

rogue assassin

i now pronounce you chuck & larry

pride

stardust

bee movie

rendition

& i cant rem some others.

additions:

music & lyrics

the pursuit of happyness

maid in manhattan

,to be continued..

exclusion:

horror movies. haa!

all i want to watch!!!

gahhhhhhhh!!!

& i want a movie marathon. feel like.

shito i feel so random.

must be too bored.

---------------------

still reading? hurr hurr

just another random thought.

those recent hk dramas r showing alot of how ppl can backstab,

how one can harm others just to protect himself.

they talk bad bout one another.

appear to be nice, yet make use.

i dono..

just makes me wonder.

if anyone's doing this,to me.

anything behind my back..

are you? ARE YOU?

haha lala! i must be crazy.

cos who cares.

no one's perfect.

& no, i dont expect all to love me like how my closest ones are.

2007-09-11T20:43:00.000+08:00

STICK IT OUT TILL THE END.
"Sure, they might not be able to solve them, but they can help you figure out how to solve them. Being able to get things off your chest will make you feel so much better! That's the secret about friends -- it's not all about how they can make your life better. It's all about how they can make you feel better about yourself."

no wonder, thats why i heart them so (:
loves!

dead silence-d at cine.

2007-09-10T11:35:00.000+08:00

i wish for a portable robot or something.
it helps plan & organize & tidy & keep me company.
can read too! & maybe..do some calculations?
of cos it has to noe how to play hockey.
buahaha.
all cos i'm getting lazier.
plus, the short term memory,
i realised it worsened.
bahhhh.

trng later. nice weather! (((:

i miss the generations..

2007-09-08T13:24:00.000+08:00

1/9-6/9 2007

[welcome to taipei ;)][the bustop]
[getting all retarded on the longgg bus ride]
[i like this]
[so pretty so handsome]
[out of the clear blue sky]
[stop running ard please]
[oh so gleeeeee :D]
[up & up & up]
[being her babysitter]

[the weather was sunny, only for that one day]
[cam craze]

[the family 8+1]
[eyes forced open]

[as we walk to the left, the right]
--------------------
its always nice
to take afew days off
from anything everything
& move away
to a place u've nv been before.
i enjoyed, totally.
LET THE GOOD TIMES ROLL

[trng's becoming more & more like sun tanning sessions.

we charcoal-ed.]

2007-09-01T01:02:00.000+08:00

1st-6th (away)

2007-08-30T23:27:00.000+08:00

no more chakde ):
watched rat-a-too-ee instead.
remy's so cute.
"anyone can cook"
i wish i can too. hurhur
took a bus down to west mall.
i like; to sit & talk & listen bout all those hockey stuffs with them. the them.
always so interesting.
plus tomo's always bz saying bye to us haha.
fun fun.
am glad i changed my mind & didnt stay home the entire day.
packing's 90% done. yay.

patience sin.
& no worries.
plus be happy.
OH, & make it worthwhile.
lastly, smileeeee.

2007-08-29T23:52:00.000+08:00

(that tuesday)

--------------

i'm sry i couldnt hide couldnt control..

this is crazy.

no u arent tinking too much.

i'm being very weird.

so weird its scaring me off. too.

i'll be fine.

time out please.

2007-08-28T23:06:00.000+08:00

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

LALALAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

HOHOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

NAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
DAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ah. scream with me!

-------

"Wild Horses"

natasha bedingfield

I feel these 4 walls closing in

My face up against the glass

I'm looking out

Is this my life I'm wondering

It happened so fast

How do I turn this thing around

Is this the bed I chose to make

Its greener pastures

I'm thinking about

Wide open spaces far away

All I want is the wind in my hair

To face the fear but, not feel scared

[Chorus:]

Wild horses I wanna be like you

Throwing caution to the wind

I'll run free too

Wish I could recklessly love, like I'm longing to

Run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses

I see the girl I wanna be

Riding bare back, care free along the shore

If only that someone was me

Jumping head first headlong without a thought

To act and damn the consequence

How I wish it could be that easy

But fear surrounds me like a fence

I wanna break free

2007-08-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

i've been thinking wayy too much bout wayy too many stuffs lately.

seems like there's an overflow of traffic in my mind that i'm a lil tired.

seems like there's no red nor amber light. its an expressway!

but watever it is, i'll nv forget wat u said.

so no worries (: i'll be fine.

[it's personal. myself & i..]

XXXXXXX

gymed with tt so-blissful-girl.

aft such a long time.

felt gd with all the pespiration.

sounds pervertic. buahoho.

went for dental checkup..

2 decayed tooth laaaaaa.

wat have i done?! :x

hurt like hell when he used his octopus stuffs over the 2 holes.

*shivers*

shall nt recall.

once again, i choco-pocky-ed -.-

where's the cheese?

i want wed.

2007-08-27T00:06:00.000+08:00

the tiny faeez & tomo. ha!
secretly :x

----------------

"whatever happened ystd, throw it away"

threw (:

----------------

out with that so blissful girl haha

shopped, fried-mars-bar-ed, chocolate pocky-ed.

met may in the middle of nowhere in town.

went delta;

src vs scc.

tomo's my no. 1 idol laaaa.

:DDDD

then.. catched up wif j & momin at lot one.

mac-ed

bluff-ed

home sweet home (:

iloveyou.all

2007-08-25T23:13:00.000+08:00

"to feel lost to be left out in the dark"

lets all pretend.

that i'm fine

2007-08-25T01:29:00.000+08:00

its emoish.

i bet its gonna be emoer.

dont ask me why am i always like that.

i think its just a cycle laa.

emo>happy>emo>happy>emo>happy>>?? emo again! haha.

weirdo.weirdo.weirdo.

[i need more of the tomo's chirpps

have somemore of yaoww's insights,plus!

lesser of this.i lovee but better not too much of i-know-what

shall keep myself bz too.

have more trngs, maybe..

& & & treat myself to more CHOCOLATE pocky!]

that shall be it.

with all the adds & minus, debits & credits -.- , i'll be just another happy girl AGAIN!!! whoopee...

nutcase liao.

hehe hoho haha! :D

2007-08-24T12:02:00.000+08:00

ishh. i hate rainy days like this ):

2007-08-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

zzz

2007-08-22T12:35:00.000+08:00

cant

waittt

forrrrr

thurrrrrr

friiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

satttttttttttttttttttt

nxt weekkkkkkk

warakuuuuuuuuuuu

bombay cafeeeeeeeee

the taiwan tripppppppppp

trainingsssssssssssss

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

2007-08-20T17:32:00.000+08:00

(clicked through some pics we took during camp,

hehe hoho haha.)

breezyy lazyyy monday.

its the seniors' result day!
hope everything
turns out fine.

woke up with a runny nose,

weird throat, spinning head.

aish.what a combo.

2007-08-19T16:49:00.000+08:00

that amazing night filled with fun & laughter.

2007-08-19T00:49:00.000+08:00

"Still Here"; Natasha Bedingfield

You looked at me and saw what I never could see

You made me feel more than I thought I could ever be

And when I needed a friend you were always there to lift me up

To make me strong

You're not gone

You're still here

With me all the time

You're still here

When I close my eyes

I still see you

I still feel you

And we'll never be apart

You're still here

Still here in my heart

In my heart

Because of you I knew how it felt to be loved

You made me feel beautiful 'cause you believed I was

And I will never forget how you touched my life

You made me feel like I belong

You live on

You're still here

With me all the time

You're still here

When I close my eyes

I still see you

I still feel you

And we'll never be apart

You're still here

Still here in my heart

In my heart

All my life

You'll be in my life

You'll be part of me

I'll just think of you and you'll still be

You'll still be here

Still here

xxxxxxx

this song's so specially dedicated to u, mr. yaow ((:

trust treasure love.

alot X infinity.

u're my bestest bestest bestest bestest etc.

as happy as u are.

2007-08-18T02:21:00.000+08:00

sagittarius: Uncertain outcomes are keeping you distracted from concentrating on what you're doing today -- you are so wrapped up in finding out what will happen next that you can't really live in the moment. But until you do, you will keep on feeling moody and slow. So today you need to try to figure out why future unknowns are so much more important to you than what's happening now. Learn how to let things unfold however they unfold. Believe that you can deal with things as they evolve, because you can.

2007-08-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

alamak.
& now's the head ):
wats wrong wads wrong?

OFF TO BED! TATA!

2007-08-16T22:31:00.000+08:00

HOKAYY! that's me & my warp-ed face.

ugly fugly cannnnn!

all thanks to pebs haha.

laughed out loud with the girls the other day.

i could have cried laughing.

WACKINESS!!

aish. when's trng gonna resume?

i miss those wackily fun ppl.

2007-08-16T00:13:00.001+08:00

the tummy ):

2007-08-15T21:33:00.000+08:00

final theory passssssssssssssssssssssssed ((:

ding dong ding dong! one lvl up!

met up with the 3 maes @ wen's place after tt.

occupied ourselves with our favourite pastime. hurhur.

TOTAL ENJOYMENT! :D

bus-ed down to bukit timah plaza for our korean food.

simple.

"THEYYY LIGHTTTT UPPPP MYYY LIFEEEEEEEEE"

meeting them tml again. again? I LIKE!

2007-08-14T15:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY

sin ar..u ought to be! :DD

[

it wasnt only the teasing part.

but the realisation of who really cares.

for you.

cos if u've noticed, this whole world's so full of me myself & i.

]

thank YOU.for putting the smile back.

thank YOU. for always standing by me.

no more emo! :D

2007-08-13T00:01:00.001+08:00

hate it when ppl can be so rude..
so offendable.
& take it for a joke.
its not funny.
wat to do..

2007-08-12T21:32:00.000+08:00

lazy to go out days.
allows me to spend more time with my loves at home.
home sweet home!

today's dinner:

ma went out wif the aunt & cousin.
plus it was raining.
& so daddy ordered pizza! teeheee
he said to hui mie zheng ju
to throw away the pizza box & receipt
& when mummy asks, to say we ate bee hoon from downstairs!
he ends with with an evil laughter.
so cheeeeky.
mei & i lol.

"It's funny how you think you really know yourself like you would never lose yourself to someone else and I was up to thinking it was all about you and me silly silly me.." "in the end somehow it always comes back to you.." -katherine mcphee [everywhere i go]

2007-08-10T20:31:00.001+08:00

multimedia proj: SUBMITTED.

whoopees! ((((((:
like finally.
& i'm currently addicted to this "CHOCO MINI" peppermint!!!!!

& to friends who're still mugging,
HANG IN THERE!
HANG IN THERE!
it'll be over before u even noe it!
HANG HANG HANG!
hang ten!!!! -.-

我的心一直温习说服自己

2007-08-09T11:10:00.000+08:00

ngee ann hockey all the way
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

lol.
the madness with them.
can make me laugh and smile and go even crazier for another 20 yrs!

2007-08-09T11:00:00.000+08:00

THAT SATURDAY.

received the pictures from lt!! :D

4/8/2007

1) the manhattan fish market

2) settlers cafe

it was a fun night.

so fun i could laugh and smile and go crazy for the nxt 10 yrs!

hearts.

2007-08-07T19:03:00.000+08:00

ken hirai-Life is..

"embrace pain, for only this is reality..."

how true.
all credits to fred.

2007-08-06T15:09:00.000+08:00

there are so many old stuffs buried in my room!

the silly msgs we'll pass ard in sec skool haha.
the photos we took like yrs ago,
the big yellow card tt a05 gave in yr 1,
& the others... tt belonged to the past.
threw many away.

---------

"friends dont have to meet up always to know that they are the best of friends.
friends are friends when they feel best with them, even if it means meeting up once in 10 years.."

u wrote.remember?

u're so missed. loves!

holiday #1.
rot at home.

2007-08-05T23:58:00.000+08:00

PEOPLE! THERE'S NO OFFICING TML! :D
ernie's so happy its bouncing. hahaha
still there's the MESSY room to clean tml zzz

2007-08-05T22:05:00.000+08:00

2nd august 2007...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ma!
bought ma a necklace. superr nice, superr suit her.
dad helped put on for her (:
had dinner at sushi tei. yummylicious.
after tt was time spent with the crazy 05s plus bumblebee.
wen bought this angel for us, with the price tag still on it haa.
we shopped around candy empire & GIANT for the presents.
watched ALONE & had the cheese prata.
it was joyyyy.

[this is family.my family]

3rd august 2007...

tt marks the end of apt.

what a 6 months.

highs to lows to up down left right,

we've all made it through.

its funny how we'll tell one another:

"i've been smiling to myself like some madcase while thinking there's no more work!"

still we'll say we miss the people (emphasizing on "NOT THE WORK")

yes i do too.

26/2/07-3/8/07..i'll miss..

the bunch of gd friends we hardly knew each other when we just started work.

we call up one another for lunch,

"are u officing tml?" we'll always ask,

our fav. slacking lounge at lvl 14,

all the goo goo gaa gaas over dewberry & milo,

how we'll always feed the shredder till its on the verge of exploding,

our table's the messiest,

scissors/scotchtape anyone?,

we love writing timesheets,

the mee sua/nasi lemak/4item for $2.50 mixed rice/chicken rice/cheap fruits/titbits we'll always buy etc.. ,

the vts having to squeeze till we cant anymore,

we make fun of ppl,

for endless times, we'll complain how slow the vt desktop is,yet hav it keep us company on our free/bored times with its games..

peter & friends! haha.

the gossip & high times wif jen & ash..

plus the so so so much more.

nt forgetting the seniors who helped me most.

brought me to nice places wif nice food,

taught me patiently even during their most bz times.

plus i've nv had OTs.

GL bought this nice bracelet during his trip to china (he remembers me!) (:

LT who may seem fierce but is bubbly & nice (:

EST's the sweetest (:

JK with the cutest laughter & funny jokes (:

PYY always offering me sweets (:

VL helped me wif my review pts even when he's rushing for time! he's so full of nonsense but'll those nonsense always makes my day (:

so glad i'm assigned to this team of ppl. so nice.

[ times @ EY]

4 august - 5 august 2007...
then there's these 2 days i spent with the other 3 generations.
FUN times. ate ate ate shopped shopped shopped laugh laugh laugh. .
its been pretty long since i've felt this way.being with them.so free.
& yes, these nxt 6 mths i'm so gonna treasure every min sec.
we all noe why.
heart them more than loads.

[shopping for wen's bbq stuffs at bukit timah]
[while waiting for bus]
[CRAZY SHOPPERS]

[high high into the skyyyy]

-------

~~u're nv forgotten i swear.~~~~so is it me or is it u or the things ard us or must be me.or was there even nth?~~

2007-07-30T21:01:00.000+08:00

remains unchanged
no matter how hard i try.
still,
u nv asked.
never tried.
to her, u always did.
no, i'm not being oversensitive.
cos it've always been this way.
the obvious way tt u wont notice.
the miss invisible me.
u'll nv put urself into tt shoes of mine.
so i shall continue keeping mum.
cos u'll nv understand.
( i'm this upset. cant u see?)

(tt's how i feel myself when i'm with them.
now i know why.)

yet in the end, its still i love u n u love me.
(thanks tess)

blackmondayyyyyyyyyyymorning.

WED! mr.cheese (: